in the now

i find myself wishing for the future a lot. i always think “i cant wait for this to happen, i cant wait til i’m doing this, i cant wait to be this, etc.” or the exact opposite, “i should have said this, i should have done this. i should have spent more time on this, etc. “ I spend so much time on the future and the past that a lot of the time, i’m not present. i’m not here in the moment, enjoying what i have now.

yes, i struggle with a lot of things and there’s my fair share of misfortune, but there is so much good. there is so much to be thankful for. there is so much to smile about. there is so much to create. right now. not yesterday, not tomorrow, now. 

i’ve been so busy reminiscing and so busy longing for the future, that i’ve found myself become a little lost. and that’s hard, once you’ve realized that you haven’t been all there for a while. but that just means you can get yourself back on track, back where you want to go. 

wanting things is not a bad thing. not in the slightest. but just wishing for things to happen without putting in the work and being present, isn’t necessarily going to make it happen. if you want something, go get it. do what you have been hesitating to do. you have to do what makes you happy.

i think that working into this mindset of being in the now, has really helped me mentally. it allows me to enjoy every moment and to just be even more grateful for what i have right now. because we are living beautiful lives.

appreciating the little things surrounding you and happening in your life can be so comforting. it checks you back into a more positive mindset after being a bit out of sorts and focusing on the negatives.

i do find myself focusing on negative things in my life and in the world a lot. so much, to the point where it is hard to see any good. and that is exhausting. its hard. but when i stop and think of the roof over my head; the wonderful people in my life; my job; the tea i just made; the paint chipping off of my nails, signaling that i will be putting a new, beautiful color on them soon; the way everyone has a little bit more energy when the suns out. its all really such a blessing, isn’t it?

so yes, i am excited for my future. i have goals, aspirations, dreams. im excited to be my very best self. but right now i am my very best self. and so are you. we grow into something more beautiful every day and that includes today. because we aspire to be the best we can be. which so far, you are the best you can be, right now.