falling back in love
i’ve fallen back in love. i’ve fallen back in love with the way the universe loves us unconditionally. i’ve fallen back in love with the way it feels when you read a whole book in one sitting. i’ve fallen back in love with the way the sun wakes you up saying good morning, and the way the moon sends her love and whispers goodnight. i’ve fallen back in love with living. i’ve fallen back in love with the world around me. i’ve fallen back in love with myself.
i’m sure all of us can agree, the past year has been complete shit. one for the books, really. personally i’ve been up and down, i’ve had some really good days and some really bad ones. the past couple months i have been in a really rough spot. my depressive episodes seeming to get worse with every wave and seeming to get longer each time. its exhausting, really. losing motivation when all you want to be is productive, can tear you apart. but with time, i am learning that it’s okay. i am learning that i need breaks. and i should not be ashamed if they’re longer than others or if i need them more often. because i am trying my best, as are you. i have always picked myself back up, and i will continue to. because i deserve that resilience. i deserve that self love. i deserve to give myself patience and to give myself compassion.
i’ve been spending a lot of time lately practicing self love and trying to get back into things i used to love. i have been taking an endless amount of photos, i have been reading as much as i can, because i want to. i have been free writing. i have been allowing myself full days of rest. because if you can’t get out of bed some days, then that’s okay. watch a movie you really enjoy. sleep. listen to music that you love. stare at the damn ceiling. just let yourself rest. your body deserves that. you deserve that.
we are all divine beings, and we deserve to treat ourselves as such. to treat the people around us as such. we are so full of love and light. even on our darkest days. and on our darkest days, we’ve got to remember that those dark parts of ourselves, are just as important as the rest. they deserve just as much nurturing and just as much love, if not more. the dark, the light, they make us whole. it is beautiful. every single part of you is beautiful. even if you can’t always see it, i promise it is.
