i have a good feeling about you, twenty-two

oh, hello 2022. another year to add to my never-ending novel that is my life. i pray you are sweet. i have a good feeling about you, twenty-two. with the state of our world, I know you will bring relief. I hope you do. our world needs it, our world suffers and is in need of healing. there are many things I cannot change, so sometimes it’s nice to just focus in on things you can. I can change how I look at the world. even just for a moment. to look at the light, since there has been never-ending clouds of darkness over us. even if it may be naive, I’d rather feed the child within me, then to keep showing her a life with no hope. because looking into your inner child, looking at who you once were, you realize they are still you, and you deserve good things and you deserve patience. i’ll always feed into that little me’s blissful ignorance. because maybe that’s why its so easy to be miserable, because we forget to feed that part of ourselves. we can’t predict what will happen. so, why not live in the moment and catch our breath from all the mountains we’ve climbed and miles of life we have ran. let’s soak it all in just for a moment. or more. to see how far we’ve come. to celebrate our blessings and victories.

even if celebrating a new year with goals and aspirations is cheesy, tbh i love it. its like a reality check. because lets be honest its quite easy to get caught up in bullshit that doesn’t matter. because stress gets in the way and you may lose routine or forget to do things for yourself. because life gets in the way. so lets talk about what matters (at least, to me). my victories of the year are important and so are yours. so, if you would, join me in the comments and comment some of your victories, big or small. give your accomplishments, whatever the magnitude, some love. give yourself some love. i can start. i got into my dream school! i did it, i got into Columbia College Chicago (plus a scholarship) and i couldn’t be more excited. i plan to start attending in the fall after i finish my associates degree. my plan is to major in film and television with a concentration in cinematography and editing and to minor in advertising (tbh my minor is not set in stone, but that’s what i’m thinking rn). I cannot wait to transfer, i am so damn proud of myself. i worked so hard, keeping up with school while life and my struggling mental health gets in the way. it feels like i’ve been waiting so long for this and now its finally happening! that’s my most exciting victory. just being here and getting to the next year is a victory in itself, and i am so thankful. so thankful for the incredible humans i surround myself with. truly. there’s just so much to be thankful for. thankful for filling my life with love and spending time with people who make me feel good is something i call a victory in itself.

and you, you reading this. i am so so proud of you. and all of your precious little victories. and your big ones! of your hard work and your resilience. give yourself some grace and love, in any way you can. give yourself patience. because you deserve it. and more. so here’s to 2022! and everything that’s to come.